tuesday november 18

today i was about to shower when i heard what could have been a knock on the front door of my apartment. considering i wasn’t entirely sure what i was hearing (with the fan and heat on in the bathroom, the knocking was pretty muffled and could have been coming from above me or on another door in the house) and i didn’t feel like getting dressed again, i decided to just step into the shower and ignore it. i then spent the next five minutes dreaming up reasons why someone would’ve come around to the back of the house to knock on my door, ultimately concluding that the only things that made sense were a delivery (i’d ordered nothing) or an emergency (the likely scenario). by the time i got out of the shower, i was a ball of anxiety, but as it turns out, when i finally stepped outside to check on things, there was absolutely no indication that anyone had been at my door.