thursday march 8

today i dreamt that i just couldn't take life on a small deserted island any more and decided to attempt to escape. i was the five millionth person to venture into that part of the ocean (it had a 'views' counter like a youtube video) and some sort of seaman who was bringing more people to the island, as i left it, warned me that no one had ever escaped alive. i responded, "i'd rather take a one in five million risk than stay here any longer!!" not only was my odds calculating totally off (more like 0 in 4,999,999 there), but this stance was so antithetical to what my real-life reaction to such a situation would be that i'm shocked my subconscious even went there.