monday july 28

today i realized i had no idea whether or not a friend who borrowed some money from me seven months ago had ever repaid the loan. i assumed that if the debt remained unpaid, i wouldn't have just forgotten about it, but after checking my email and message history, there was no record of us settling up. plus, maybe i'm just the sort of chill dude who would entirely forget about something like that, since it's just money, man. still, at this point, it's not even about the money -- it's the not knowing that's killing me. it'd be great to find out whether this loan is ancient history (paid) or whether it's still pervading every interaction my friend and i have (unpaid).